I am so happy to be writing my first blog of the new decade! Let me first say I hope this year shows you the purpose that lives on the inside of you. I hope the very thing you are struggling to believe will happen, happens! I hope that when you seek God, you find the peace that comes in His presence and you daily desire Him like never before. I hope you don’t just talk about change, but you transform and cause a momentum shift to take place in your life, and the lives around you!
Every year our church asks the members, to each individually, think back on the previous year. Think about the highs and lows. Think about where you’ve grown, and where you’ve struggled. Choose one word that will be your focus for the new year. My husband and I love sharing with each other our word for the year. For days I kept trying to decide between two words: present and consistent. I listed reasons why I should focus on those, but they just weren’t the word that the Lord gave me for the year.
Last year the Lord gave me the word steady. Every time I wanted to give up last year, every time I couldn’t see the good, every time I wanted to just accept depression and give in; I would whisper to myself steady. I would gather myself, thank the Lord and seek Him for guidance, strength, and comfort. It’s wild how powerful one word can be, and why it was so important for me to now seek the Lord for my one word for the year. I was doing some writing and researching word definitions, because I’m the kind of person who reads the dictionary for fun haha. While looking for one word, I was directed to click on another word and well….
As I thought back to last year I thought about how I kept feeling like I was going through the fire. So much was going on in my life that continuously brought me to my knees, either to cry, or to pray, and sometimes both. Through the fire I kept feeling like things were being burned away off of me. Although it was painful, I knew the beauty of new life that would emerge would be worth it. For everything that is precious on earth, there is a painful process for the unique beauty of it to be birthed. Think about the making of pearls, the revealing of diamonds, the burning of gold, the pressing of oil, and hey the birthing of life!
Last year, whenever I felt the pressure of the changes coming in my life I kept letting myself know that I may be going through the fire, but I’m coming out gold! I kept reading the story of Job in the Bible, which I highly recommend. Sometimes messed up stuff happens and we have no clue as to why, but we know that our God is a good God. I kept reminding myself of the goodness and lovingkindness of the Lord. I would constantly repeat to myself: God loves me, He knows what I have need of, He takes pleasure in my well being, His thoughts towards me are that I prosper and be in health even as my soul prospers, God knows I can make it through this, nothing happens for naught, I may not understand why, but I know better is coming.
I was brought low last year. Put through the fire. I was challenged in areas I did not see coming. I was faced with dealing with repressed hurts. I had to encourage myself daily. I refused to give up hope, and now after feeling so broken down, I have a new life, new vision, and new hope. My word for the year is renovation!
God and I are renovating my life. He holds the blueprints, plans, and visions. I choose to align myself up with His will for my life and I choose to operate under his direction. The moves I make will be ones of purpose. To renovate means to restore something old to a good place of repair. The breaking down to be built back up to something better than what was before. Being a HGTV kind of girl, some renovations even restore to original plans! I always tell God I wanna be who He created me to be, and man do I desire that like never before.
This year my mind, body, soul, and life is being renovated and I look toward the coming days with joy and determination in my eyes. I want to encourage you to seek the Lord for your word of the year and let’s be accountable to one another to remember our word, and walk in it! Have an amazing year! Do something out of the ordinary, and believe again. I love you all and am excited for new things!
While renovating my life I decided to share with you all a dream the Lord gave me in 2018. My whole life I always said that I wished God would write me a letter and just tell me what to do. I always had so many professions I wanted to pursue and I wanted to choose the one that God created me to do. I knew at a young age, that to do what God has called you to do, there is the blessing; and it is there, work becomes much more than just work.
Well, as time grew on, l would have career conversations with my husband and would always tell him, “I wish God would just call me on the phone and tell me, Shervyse, do this”. I meant that y’all! Whatever God would directly tell me to do, I would do.
More time went on and one night I had a dream…
In the dream I got that phone call.
An angel of the Lord came to me and handed me a cell phone. He said God wanted to talk to me. I took the phone and began to weep. I was then taken to a new place and heard the voice of the Lord in my ear. The voice of the Lord is the most comforting sound you will ever hear. In the dream I straight up asked God what he wants me to do….
God told me, “The Primary School”.
So, you know what…My focus is, The Primary School!
I love film, and I know God led me to study it, and now He has shown me where to focus my studies, and where to go. I am sharing with you because it took me time to surrender. Raw honest moment! Hello! When you have an idea of what you want God to say, and He says something totally different, your flesh tells you to question if it really was God. Be obedient, because it was God! Remember, He is smarter than you, and can see further than you. He made you, and He knows the gifts on the inside of you, and He desires for you to use them to help impact the lives of others, for His glory. Now that I have fully surrendered and fully trust, I’m ready to walk in what God has called me to do. So, hold me accountable! Make sure I stay about my Father’s business!
To my Child Development Teacher back in high school:
You were right, you win, haha!