Some years back I noticed that there were two kinds of Christians: Those who praise God when things are good, but forget His goodness when things are bad; Those who seek God with all they have when things are going bad, but fail to seek Him as much when things are going good. As time went on I realized I was the latter. How did I find out? I found out when I was going through a rough season in my life and I was ready for victory. I was in prayer calling Heaven down and in that moment I had to repent. Why did it take a struggle to bring me to my knees?
I believe so many of us go through difficult seasons. As Christians we try to see the good, but sometimes the good gets blurred as more difficulty comes to view. When I’m going through something that shakes my faith I seek God with all my heart, mind, soul, and strength. I pray in tongues, I worship in Spirit and in true, I dissect the Word, and I fast to focus and gain instructions. I feel so close and in tune with God. We develop a rhythm and I mess satan up because I consistently tell God how amazing He is. I refuse to let what seems bad and impossible, make me forget all that God has done for me, and all that He is to me, and yet, when I’m in a season of overflow and chilling I don’t seek Him with that same urgency.
The fact is, I need God regardless of my mental, physical, emotional, social, and or financial state! I will always need God. There is no me without Him. He is my life and breath and I cannot function without Him. In the good or in the bad, I am still in need of a Savior and His mercy and grace. I remember one day talking to the youth at my church about their closeness to God. I asked them, “On a scale of 1-10, 10 being the closest, how close are you to God?” Their answers pressed heavy on my heart. The average answer was 5. We then discussed ways to draw closer to God and I shared with them the moments in my life I felt closest to God. They expressed that they wanted to get closer, and I shared with them something God told me. In prayer I too was seeking to get closer to God, but felt who am I to request this, and God said, “You can get as close to me as you want to”. I repeat those words to myself whenever I feel I am missing time with God.
I recently went through a season of one hardship after the other. My family has been hit on every side. I haven’t been posting as much, because I don’t believe in faking the funk. If you see me smiling and bubbly, that’s because I am. When you don’t see me, its because I’m either crazy busy or working through a challenging moment, and recently it has been both. In my seeking God through the rough times I realized that yet again it took me to be brought low to get on my knees and seek God like I know how. I was honestly cruising through life, and treating God like a daily vitamin. I knew I needed Him, and was still praying, praising, worshipping, serving, and witnessing…and yet it was just surface. It was enough to say I did, but I was still missing something. There was a space not fulfilled even in all that I was doing. Now, there were many days I caught a glimpse of what I was missing, and it took for me to slow down to notice the difference.
I was missing the search. When you are a new Christian you want to learn everything about God. You seek Him in everything. You desire understanding and a deep relationship. I always loved the scripture that says God is unsearchable, meaning we will never know all that He is, but man the joy that comes from the search is indescribable! It was like I let our relationship get stale. You know how they say date your spouse, that’s what I needed to do. Date God again! Make time for Him, put Him first, have Him on my mind all day and night, wonder what He’s thinking, go out my way to make Him smile, tell everyone about Him, and know there is no other place I’d rather be than in His presence, because its there that I am home and feel beautiful, complete, and wanted back.
When you’ve been saved for a while, when you live a busy schedule, when you have much on your mind, and heck when you’re simply a human living life, it’s easy to focus on the natural and set spiritual things beside you. Picking up only once reminded to do so. Today I want us all to seek God first and above all; whether this is a time of goodness flowing or fighting the bad. I told God, I want to learn this lesson! I don’t want to wait till I’m going through to seek Him fervently. I want to seek God and search Him constantly, because there will always be something new to learn about God, and we can get as close to Him as we want to!